She had trouble with herself

I guess I've lost my sense in blogging because words are all over the places and I couldn't even pick them up and make them into verses * big sigh .

Well this proves how much of a failure I am in blogging these days and I noticed that I am getting lazier each day to blog and at one point I thought of closing down this blog . But to think about it again , nahh I just don't think so I would do so because blogging is the only way ( okay Tumblr is another way too actually ) where I can actually express all the unsaid feelings , the words that we have never said to people , all the words that we couldn't have said but should have said . Get what I mean ? Okay just forget it if you don't get it .

I gotta say that the worst feeling in life is when someone meant so much to you but you mean nothing to them and I hate the fact that I am hoping for something that isn't going to happen after all . I think I'm holding onto you in hopes that something real will happen . As it is in reality , I realize that nothing will ever happen .

Nothing ...

Falling in love with you wasn't my plan as it just happen whenever it wants and it's so hard to tell my mind to stop loving you when my heart still does .

I wish you knew that I always think about all the things that I wanna say to you , like I actually plan it out in my head . But after all , nothing comes out .

I tried to stop thinking about you but it didn't work .

I did my best to get rid off the feelings , but it seems nothing is ever happened !

I realize the fact that you and me , it's where the story line ends .

I just need some way to get over you and I wish I knew how .

It's true when people said , the harder you hold back your feelings for someone , the deeper you fall in love .

I thought I was done with feeling like this ...

And honestly , I'm not sure if I should keep holding on or just let the things go . I know it's stupid to hold on to something that just keeps hurting you but I guess it's also stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted .

I like someone that I eventually can't have ... I know that .

#nowplaying Enchanted by Taylor Swift .

Random#6

Taking a break from blogging wasn't what I expected yet it seems like my blog has been abandoned for really an ages .

Phew !

What else I can say , there are a lot of things going on my mind and it keeps delaying me and eventually stopped my intention to blog .

Well , just so you know that I am still in my semester break and I'll be back to Kuantan just in a few weeks' time .

Yes .. it's so true that time flies very fast ! Just in a blink of an eye , the semester break is almost over .

And then , again ... the hectic life as a student will start as usual .

Anyway , since I am in the semester break and I have nothing to do .. oh yes I am neither working nor doing anything . So yeah I was wandering to my friend's blog and yes most of them were updating on the final result which has been announced yesterday .

Yes , yesterday was one of my biggest day ever . * biggest day to me means a day where your examination result is out and yeah it is called 'biggest' because it can shiz you out , trust me .

And just like others , I was major nervous plus scared and definitely I was hoping for the best .

And alhamdulillah ... thank you to Allah , as I did my best and my result was quite okay though .

Well I might not be in the Dean List but at least I got what I wanted and I am satisfied with the result .

And just like everyone else , I really worked my ass off and alhamdulillah it seems worth it .

So yeah , congratulations to those awesome people who managed to get into the DL , I am so proud of you guys . What else I can say when there are three of five of my room mates are in the DL ! To those who scored the pointer 3.0 and above , well you guys are awesome too ! And to others , don't feel depressed or anything , we all still have one more semester to go !

Anyway , I am seriously indulging myself into the Korean world during this semester break as I am spending most of my time watching these Korean people and uh the guys especially ! *melting .

And I just wanna let you know that the Korean world here means the side of the entertainment world of Korea .

Well frankly I have to say that I am not really a die hard fan of this K-Pop thingy but heck yeah now I guess the tempo has changed and I kinda love this K-Pop thingy .

But heck yeah , I can tell you that I prefer the Korean boy band and enough to say that I am a fan of 2PM !

From left ; Chansung , Junsu , Wooyoung , Junho , Nichkun and Taecyon :)

Mentally in love !

And and oh yes , you should watch this music video and if you're a girl , you'll be melting ! Haha okay nahh I'm just joking . You will if you're a fan of them and you won't if you aren't .

And yeah I got to say that it is very rare to see the boys whom a fan of this K-Pop thingy . Well I personally think that most of the boys hate this K-Pop thingy simply because it's not cool yaww to minat minat K-Pop ni , sotong boleh la kan .. then dah la mcm gay ja . Okay just wanna let you know that I am trying to be sarcastic there . Haha .

Well I am not trying to offend anyone , but hell yeah it's not wrong to be a fan of a K-Pop . Music is universal so yeah you gotta deal with it :) Just don't be too narrow-minded .

Till then toddles peeps and have a nice day !

:)