She had trouble with herself

I guess I've lost my sense in blogging because words are all over the places and I couldn't even pick them up and make them into verses * big sigh .

Well this proves how much of a failure I am in blogging these days and I noticed that I am getting lazier each day to blog and at one point I thought of closing down this blog . But to think about it again , nahh I just don't think so I would do so because blogging is the only way ( okay Tumblr is another way too actually ) where I can actually express all the unsaid feelings , the words that we have never said to people , all the words that we couldn't have said but should have said . Get what I mean ? Okay just forget it if you don't get it .

I gotta say that the worst feeling in life is when someone meant so much to you but you mean nothing to them and I hate the fact that I am hoping for something that isn't going to happen after all . I think I'm holding onto you in hopes that something real will happen . As it is in reality , I realize that nothing will ever happen .

Nothing ...

Falling in love with you wasn't my plan as it just happen whenever it wants and it's so hard to tell my mind to stop loving you when my heart still does .

I wish you knew that I always think about all the things that I wanna say to you , like I actually plan it out in my head . But after all , nothing comes out .

I tried to stop thinking about you but it didn't work .

I did my best to get rid off the feelings , but it seems nothing is ever happened !

I realize the fact that you and me , it's where the story line ends .

I just need some way to get over you and I wish I knew how .

It's true when people said , the harder you hold back your feelings for someone , the deeper you fall in love .

I thought I was done with feeling like this ...

And honestly , I'm not sure if I should keep holding on or just let the things go . I know it's stupid to hold on to something that just keeps hurting you but I guess it's also stupid to let go of everything you've ever wanted .

I like someone that I eventually can't have ... I know that .

#nowplaying Enchanted by Taylor Swift .

Random#6

Taking a break from blogging wasn't what I expected yet it seems like my blog has been abandoned for really an ages .

Phew !

What else I can say , there are a lot of things going on my mind and it keeps delaying me and eventually stopped my intention to blog .

Well , just so you know that I am still in my semester break and I'll be back to Kuantan just in a few weeks' time .

Yes .. it's so true that time flies very fast ! Just in a blink of an eye , the semester break is almost over .

And then , again ... the hectic life as a student will start as usual .

Anyway , since I am in the semester break and I have nothing to do .. oh yes I am neither working nor doing anything . So yeah I was wandering to my friend's blog and yes most of them were updating on the final result which has been announced yesterday .

Yes , yesterday was one of my biggest day ever . * biggest day to me means a day where your examination result is out and yeah it is called 'biggest' because it can shiz you out , trust me .

And just like others , I was major nervous plus scared and definitely I was hoping for the best .

And alhamdulillah ... thank you to Allah , as I did my best and my result was quite okay though .

Well I might not be in the Dean List but at least I got what I wanted and I am satisfied with the result .

And just like everyone else , I really worked my ass off and alhamdulillah it seems worth it .

So yeah , congratulations to those awesome people who managed to get into the DL , I am so proud of you guys . What else I can say when there are three of five of my room mates are in the DL ! To those who scored the pointer 3.0 and above , well you guys are awesome too ! And to others , don't feel depressed or anything , we all still have one more semester to go !

Anyway , I am seriously indulging myself into the Korean world during this semester break as I am spending most of my time watching these Korean people and uh the guys especially ! *melting .

And I just wanna let you know that the Korean world here means the side of the entertainment world of Korea .

Well frankly I have to say that I am not really a die hard fan of this K-Pop thingy but heck yeah now I guess the tempo has changed and I kinda love this K-Pop thingy .

But heck yeah , I can tell you that I prefer the Korean boy band and enough to say that I am a fan of 2PM !

From left ; Chansung , Junsu , Wooyoung , Junho , Nichkun and Taecyon :)

Mentally in love !

And and oh yes , you should watch this music video and if you're a girl , you'll be melting ! Haha okay nahh I'm just joking . You will if you're a fan of them and you won't if you aren't .

And yeah I got to say that it is very rare to see the boys whom a fan of this K-Pop thingy . Well I personally think that most of the boys hate this K-Pop thingy simply because it's not cool yaww to minat minat K-Pop ni , sotong boleh la kan .. then dah la mcm gay ja . Okay just wanna let you know that I am trying to be sarcastic there . Haha .

Well I am not trying to offend anyone , but hell yeah it's not wrong to be a fan of a K-Pop . Music is universal so yeah you gotta deal with it :) Just don't be too narrow-minded .

Till then toddles peeps and have a nice day !

:)

Meet Karmin :)

Hello peeps :)

This just gonna be a very short update .

Anyway , meet Karmin and she's awesome .

And check out this vid yaww xD

As we go on we remember :)

Well H to E to Double L and to the O lovelies !

How r ya doin awesome people ?

I know it's been really an AGES since I last wrote on my blog .

Taking a break from blogging and yet it seems my blog has been abandoned for a how-many months ( I'm not sure either ) . I must admit , little by little as time slips away .. my mood to blog is slowly slipping away too . Well perhaps it's because I'm too attached with the books . teehee :D

Just so you know that my Finals was over and here I am back to HOME ! Wippie xD

And I have to say that during the study weeks , I were having a major relationship with the books . Oh yes , my life was like for 24/7 with the books .

There were too many things to be memorized , to many things to be remembered but hey ho I know these are the things that you need to face as you're a STUDENT .

So yeah , I'm not gonna complain much :)

Throughout the first semester , I had my sweetest memories and greatest experiences and yeah of course , among those sweetest and greatest there were few stories that erm ruined the plot of my story so I guess let's just forget about all those no-so-greatest momentos and now I should reveal to you the greatest events that ever happened in my life as a college student .

1. It all started as soon as I got the offer to further my studies in Foundation Studies in Law in UiTM . Oh yes , I always wanted to further my studies in this course and I was major grateful to have the chance to be in the course that I've always wanted to .

2. So my new place of living is Kuantan , Pahang since my campus is situated in Bukit Sekilau , Kuantan . I meet these wonderful people , started with the awesome room mates then the wonderful house mates , next my group mates and then some of the course mates and also the awesome seniors . My house mates are so coolidat hehe seriously they are . I'm glad to have them as my house mates . I love all of them . They were always be with me through my ups and downs since my family and besties aren't here with me .

I have to say that of course even until now , I still do not recognize all my course mates and yes , I know there are some my course mates who don't know me either . So I can say that for some people a human being named Nur Anis Shahira Binti Abdul Majid isn't exist in Sekilau . haha .

And so I guess with another semester left , I might have the chance to get to know all of them !

3. And definitely , there are were bunch of tasks to do as a college student , no more homework ! xD Okay please don't be too excited .

No more homework but a bunch of ass-ignments that need to be done from the individual to the group assignments . I enjoyed doing all of these things even though it was very tiring but heck yeah , it's part of my duty as a student so again I won't complain much :) However , I need to say that and emphasize that I prefer the individual assignment rather than the group assignment .

And why ? Some might say , "Wait , bukan ka if lagi ramai lagi senang buat kerja ? Amagad , you're such a freak Anis Shahira ! " .

Two words ; okay whatever . There's a reason behind this and let me tell ya . I don't prefer the group assignments because I'm tired of being the one who did almost everything . And please I'm not trying to angkat bakul sendiri or whatever but this is absolutely true and ask the house mates and they will let you know the stories :) Okay enough with this issue .

4. I've learnt to be independent since this is my first time staying away from my parents and family . And now I guess I am independent enough teehee :) Plus I am 18 kan so big enough to think but somehow , I still need my guidance .

5. Being a Law student , I am able to know my rights and yeah the goods and the bads about things that revolved around me . So yeah , don't you ever dare to fool me . Muahaha xD

Okay I guess that's all for the time being .

Till we meet again soon :)

Toodle and take care lovelies .

Pictures tell a thousand word , it's true though !

When sorrow walks with me .

It's just another typical Sunday and here I am , at home .

And tomorrow , I shall go back to Kuantan and my hectic life as a student will begin as usual .

Anyway , it was great to spent my days and nights with my family .

It was good to be with them even for only three days .

I value my precious time with them . I appreciate each of the moments .

It's good to see Mama , finally ... after she had undergone the operation .

How I missed her :)

She is still weak , her lips dry and she looks pale and thin than before .

Dear Mama , please get well soon coz I really miss the old you .

I miss my Mama who talks a lot , nags a lot and calls me every single day since I'm not staying with you anymore .

I miss my Mama who never gives up in her life , who never afraid of anything and yes nothing is seems impossible for you , right ?

I might not be able to understand your feelings and I might not be able to feel all the pain that you've been suffering for all these time but I just want you to know that I love you so much and I cannot bare to see you like that .

I can't even look at your face or else I'll definitely burst into tears .

But I did , I cried a lot .

I've been telling myself not to cry , be positive and to stay strong in whatever situations , however when it comes to feelings and emotions we can never control them , never !

It just happen even when you have tried to control them .

I never stop praying and I am hoping that you'll get well soon .

You'll be fine just like before , an iron woman who live her life to the fullest .

A strong woman who can do anything , just name it .

Be strong , Ma .

Don't think of anything else .

My prayers are always with you .

I love you Mama and will always love you :)

But if you hold tight , shadows will be lost in the light and if I could be your superman, I'd fly you to the stars and back again.

Bonjour lovelies , how's your day ?

Anyway , I am so in love w a song titled , Holes Inside by Joe Brooks .

Some may already know and for others perhaps you're not .

And as for me , I just found out this song last week oh yeah lame me . LOL .

I have to say that I love the singer , Joe Brooks very much and of course , the song .

The music arrangement is just awesome and the lyrics are meaningful .

Trust me , you'll love it as soon as you listen to it and well if you don't , perhaps something is wrong w you or maybe you're not into this kind of song .

And Joe Brooks is just like Taylor Swift in a male version .

He's talented and oh man , I'm in love w this guy seriously !

How come I never know him before *sigh

#Handsome 1

# Handsome 2

# Sexiest nerd alive amagashhhhhhhhh

You nak high five dgn I ka ? Haha jk jk .

# Mannn , mcm ni pun handsome !

# Okayy , I'm melting ..

Kayyy I know dia handsome gilaaa right ? Haha xD

By the way , Holes Inside is not a new song and it's not an old song either , and yeah I don't even know when was the song being published . But who cares , I am now so so into this song and yes it's kinda compulsory for me to listen to this song everyday .. EVERYDAY OKAY .

Well , you can say that I AM ADDICTED TO IT .. I don't mind hihi .

And yes you shud listen to Superman too , coz Superman is another great song from Joe Brooks .

And oh man , he's hot in this vid , like I said before SEXIEST NERD ALIVEEEEEE ! hehe .

Superman too , the lyrics are meaningful and yeah the melody of the song is so catchy , you'll like it tho :)

So peeps , I'm gonna leave you w this two songs and please listen to them :)

And google the lyrics so that you'll realise how awesome are the songs hehe .

Kayy that's all .

Till then toddles :)

Random #5

Good day people :)

Anyway today is just another typical Sunday and yeah man I am safely arrived at Sekilau .

How time flies , and cuti is overrr !

I started to miss my family already and especially Mama , I wish I could stay at home longer but nahh what to do ? It was just a one week breaks so yeah have to deal w it :)

Anyway , it was good to be home . I enjoyed my cuti very much .

I really enjoyed myself , spending the time w the whole family .

And I was so touched when Mama cooked rendang ayam and nasi tomato for me before I went back to Kuantan . She's not felling so well but still she cooked for me just because I was home .

Thanks Ma , I love you a lot ! <3

And now , I have to gain back my mood of studying since the college life is about to begin as usual which is officially tomorrow .

Here comes the hectic life of a college student *sigh

Oh by the way , I feel relived since I have done w the assignments thingy . I won't say that all the assignments were already completed but yeah I'm done w the LAW 016's assignments and I have already started doing my LAW 012's assignment .

Credits to Abah , since he was the one who guided me how to make the assignments and the footnotes . But Abah really determined to help me and guided me how to make the all footnotes . He even brought some of his books from the office and ask me to refer to them .

Oh my , thanks Abah ! I couldn't do all those things w/out your help ; )

Well , I guess that's all from me for this time , it's just a short update anyway :)

Till then , toodles and take care peeps !

As I am Eighteen :)

Bonjour lovelies :)

How's you day goin so far ?

Anyway , I've been very very very busy lately , with all the classes , assignments and group presentations nahhh I just don't have the time to update my blog and of course when you're tired , too , you just don't have the mood to come out with any idea of updating your blog .

And I shud say that today my class schedule isn't too packed and I'm doin' nothing at this moment so yeah I'm here , updating my blog :)

So I am so so eager to let you know that I was turning eighteen on 5th July which was on last Tuesday hihi .

Yeah 5th July is the day when I was exiting my mother's womb and live in this world .

I am officially eighteen yawwww *muka bangga haha

Oh yeah mannn !

And and I would love to express my gratitude and million of thanks to you guyss oh yes you who wished for my birthday , no matter whether through the face-to-face interaction , through messages or even through social networking sites .

Thanksss a lot guys , I was super excited on that day and yeah I really appreciate it !

There are too many names to be mentioned here and I don't think so that I would be able to list all the names here but just so you know that your wishes do meant a lot to me seriously :)

Thanks to Abah and Mama and Kak Mira and Aten for the birthday wishes through messages and phone calls <3

Thanks to my best friends for the wishes through messages and Facebook and Twittah , I love youuu !

Thanks to the whole house mates for singing the ' HAPPY BIRTHDAY ' song , right at 12 A.M. haha that was sweet tho ! I love you guysss too <3

Thanks to you guyss , my friends , from school mates to course mates . From primary school to high school to college . Thank youuu for the birthday wishes , I really really appreciate it ! And to my teachers too !

And thanks to those who don't even know me but still you guys were there wished for my birthday which was literally of course through social networking sites like Facebook and Twittah , I appreciate it as well :)

Once again , thanksssssssss everyone !

Okay done with all the gratitude and thanks session and that's all fer noww I guess .

I am seriously don't have any idea on what to write or to share with you guyss hehe my bad ! :)

So peeps till then take care and toddles !

It was Saturday and .....

Hello LOVELIES !

Wassup yaw ? How's your day anyway ?

So anyway on last Saturday we had a Beach Run and it was aawweessoommee !

Seriously , I had so much fun with my roommates and friends .

I prefer to call the event as the Beach Walk instead of Beach Run coz hell yeah I didn't run at all times , I walked and jogged . hihi .

I enjoyed the momentos very much , we had so so so much fun . The best plot of the event was when we arrived at the finishing line , Teluk Chempedak .

That was the best part :) even though I was among the last one who arrived hehe but wait who cares kan , like memang wajar la coz I was off to the public toilet , to accompany my friend so yeah we deserved to be among the last ones haha .

So before I bore you with more and more words , maybe I shud just leave you with photos , oh yeah the photos of me and my friends hihi .